Acts
16:9-15
One
day in the middle of April about 14 years ago. I was tired. I was very
uncomfortable. My feet were sore and swollen; in fact I had not worn real shoes
in over two months, and was forced to either wear my Tevas for a pair of flip
flops everywhere I went. I am sure those of you who have known me for years
will find this hard to believe, but I at this particular time in my life I
would preach in flip-flops. I had been to the hospital, oh, I don’t know, 5 times
already and had been sent home each and every time. So I was well beyond being
the “the girl who cried wolf.” To top it
all off I was feeling this way 8 days longer than I had expected, because I was
naive and thought “due dates” actually meant something.
I
had been tired of this whole grand adventure 6-8 weeks earlier. These final 8
days had seemed simply and absolutely unbearable. I woke up that morning, just
like every morning an uncountable number of days, feeling worse than I had on any
day previously. I knew that if things did not move forward by tomorrow I would
be “evaluated” and a plan would be put in place, but having to endure one more
day seemed nearly unthinkable.
Everything
I did that morning seemed unthinkable. I remember stopping at one point in the
day and catching myself on a door jamb and thinking I can not move. I am just
going to sit down right here and not move until I am done with this. Later that
morning I was on the phone with my mother and making Mike an early lunch before
he headed off to class and I snapped his head off for apparently no reason (it
was at this point when my mother began to wonder if today would be the day, but
my mother did not say anything to me at the time).
After
Mike headed off to class I layed down on the couch and became instantly aware
of exactly how uncomfortable I had become. But being a woman who had been to
the hospital too many times, I ignored it and tried to take a nap. Around 2 I
decided that perhaps this was serious and called my husband who by that time
was so intimately aware of what it meant when Kaza thought that “this is it,” that
he finished teaching class and promptly showed up at the house at 3:30, finding
me there obviously in labor and apologized for waiting. We still were not sure
if we should risk going into the hospital only to be sent home again and waited
until about 5 to call my Dr and ask what we should do. She told us to hold off
a little longer. At this time we decided to watch a movie someone had lent us. I
don’t remember much about that movie. Sometime after the movie was over I can
remember looking over at Mike, absolutely exasperated and asking, “What exactly
are we waiting for?” To which he responded, “I think we are waiting for
that.”
We
loaded ourselves up in the car and started on the 20 min ride to the hospital. I
had never thought that 20 minutes was too far to be from the hospital, but let
me tell you when you are in full labor, and seat-belted into a vehicle the
thing can not move fast enough to make even a short trip to hospital bearable. I
was checked into the hospital, and ready to go by about 8:30pm. I remember at
about 10:30 or 11:00 I thought, I am really going to have this baby today! And the fact of the matter is I was only
slightly off. Most first labors are slow ordeals because this is the first time
your body has done this, so I did not actually have Cidra on the 25th
of April in fact she was born at 12:56 am on April 26th.
One
of the things I never knew before I had children was that mothers swap these
stories in varying degrees of detail countless times over the course of their
lives. Mothers love to tell people the stories of how their children came into
this world. And the glory of it is no two stories are the same, every mother
has stories about how their children came to be a part of their family. It is something
all mothers have in common but each story is unique. Sharing these stories
brings us joy and fills our hearts with the inexpressible feelings we had the
first time we held that wonderful little miracle of God in our arms.
As
I read over this story in the book of Acts this week, I could not help but
think that this is yet another birth story. Acts is full of birth stories.
Through the account of Peter and Cornelius and the sending of Paul and Barnabas
on their first missionary journey we have traced the steps that lead to the
birth of the Gentile Church and here with Lydia we find the birth of the Church
at Philippi. This is the birth story for one of Paul’s first, most beloved, and
most supportive churches. And it begins with the story of Lydia, well like most
birth stories it begins a little before that.
Last
week we looked at the passage where Peter explained his actions at Cornelius’s
house to the council at Jerusalem. Quite a lot has happened since the Jerusalem
council decided to heed the message God gave to Peter, concerning the salvation
of the Gentiles. At this point in early church history, Paul has already
finished his First missionary journey.”
Things had gone so well on that journey that the “Gentile issue” had once
again been brought before the council of Jerusalem this time the question was
not whether they can be saved or filled with the Spirit but whether or not
non-Jewish converts are required to live by the laws God gave to the Jews through
Moses. The issue was greatly debated and after a most excellent speech given by
Paul concerning salvation by grace, convincing the entirety of the church that “looking
like a Jew” was not something they should expect of gentile the believers. The
church sent Paul and Silas and several others with a letter to the gentile
churches to let them know of their decision. It is with this letter in hand
which Paul sets out on what is often called Paul’s second missionary journey.
Paul
delivered his letter to the believers in Antioch and the people there rejoiced
at the church’s decision. From there Paul headed to Asia Minor, but all along
the way his path seemed to be “blocked.” It is at this point, Paul has the
vision described in this text. Paul has been trying to bring the good news of
Jesus Christ to Asia, but in this dream in which he sees a man from Macedonia,
which is basically in the opposite direction of which he has been going. This
man pleads with Paul asking for Paul to help “us.” Immediately Paul abandons his journey through
Asia Minor and heads to Macedonia.
Those
of us who so happen to be of European descent, we like to make a big deal out
of this change of course for Paul. God’s call for Paul to go to Macedonia is
almost as important to Christians of European decent and our Christianity, as
God’s call to Peter to accept the Gentile believers. This is because this marks
a change in the movement of the Gospel from going primarily to Mediterranean, locals
into what is now modern day Europe. People, like me, who can trace their ancestry
from European peoples, find it very exciting that God called Paul to bring the
truth of Jesus Christ to our ancestors’ way back in the first century of the
Church. And in truth it probably is an important move historically which ultimately
brought the Gospel to our fair shores here in the USA.
But
I am not sure it is any more exciting than Philip taking the gospel to Ethiopia
and converting that entire country. Or Thomas taking the long trek to India and
bringing the gospel to the peoples of that land. In reality it is just another
step in fulfilling the call God placed upon all believers to be witnesses to
the ends of the earth. The fact of the matter is through Paul, through Thomas,
through Philip and through many others the tight circle of believers who
originated in Jerusalem was ever expanding throughout the first century.
Paul
is trying to do one thing. Paul is trying to bring the gospel of Jesus Christ
in one direction but it is simply not working. And it is at this point that God
gives Paul a vision. A vision of a man
from Macedonia, and so at this man’s request Paul sets out to Macedonia. He
gets to Macedonia and came to the city of Philippi, you know Philippi, many of
us have read Paul’s letter to the church at Philippi, more commonly known as the
book of Philippians.
Paul
gets to Philippi and because it is a Roman city there is no easily found
synagogue, so he wanders outside of the city gates and finds a place of prayer.
There is a group of women who have gathered there. He approaches the group and
begins to speak to them. The scriptures do not tell us what Paul and his
companions say to these women, but what they had to say must have struck a cord
with at least one them. One of these women, named Lydia, is a God fearer. That
is to say she was a proselytite, a person who was not Jewish by birth but
believed in and worshipped God. She listened eagerly to what Paul had to say
and was soon his first convert in Macedonia, making this woman the first person
to become a part of the church which would eventually form there in Philippi. Paul
goes toward Philippi looking for a Macedonian man and instead finds a woman.
Not
only was Lydia Paul’s first convert in Philippi but she would become the
missionary’s benefactor giving him a place to live and a base of operations as
he continued to work in her town and found the church which would soon arise
there.
Paul
was trying to go to Asia and instead God called him to go to Macedonia. God
sent Paul a vision in which Paul was called to Macedonia by a man begging for
his help. When Paul arrived he did not find this man, instead he found a group
of women and it is out of this group of women where Paul finds his first
convert.
What
amazes me is that not once does Paul skip a beat. He tries and tries to go to
Asia and bring the good news of the gospel there and he is thwarted at every
turn and then God says, "You know that is not really where I want you to
go. I want you to go to Macedonia instead. And Paul is like, “Ok, I’ll go to
Macedonia.” God gave Paul a vision of a
man calling him to Macedonia, Paul arrives there and the only people he can
find to speak to are a bunch of women, so he preaches to the women. Then it is a
woman named Lydia, not a man, who is his first convert. In fact his first two
converts are women it is not until after he is jailed and witnesses to his
jailor do the scriptures tell us of a man who comes to believe because of
Paul’s witness in Macedonia. Paul has one thing in mind and God keeps handing
him something different. Paul is not discouraged or distraught that things are
not working out they way he imagined them to work out.
So
many times when we are doing the work God has called us to do, we get our own understanding
of things. We have a plan. We have it all worked out in our heads, how things
will work out and as life unfolds, as time goes on, things do not work out the
way we imagined them to go. We know God called us to the work of the kingdom;
we know our plans are good solid plans. We know these are good things to do. But
things do just not seem to go “our” way.
Going
to Asia was a good idea. Paul knew God called him to bring the good news to the
Gentiles and Asia is just full of them, but things were just not working out
there. He tried several times in several different places but it seems God was
blocking his every move. And God sends him in a completely different direction.
Paul
does not get upset, he does not get discouraged. He does not spout on and on
about how God had pulled a fast one on him changing the plans on him at the
last minute. He just shakes his head, changes direction and heads off in nearly
the opposite direction he had wanted to go and goes to the place God called him
to go.
Paul
gets there and the people who start accepting the truth of the gospel are not
the people he had envisioned. He goes to because a man has called to him across
the sea, when he arrives the first and only ones he can find to hear him is a
group of women and it is two women who hear and believe first. These were not
the kind of believers he had come here to convert. He did not look at what he
had and say, “What kind of church can I have with these people?” Paul took the converts which God brought to
him and accepted them and kept on keeping on.
Too
often we look at what we have. We look at what God has placed right in front of
us and we become discouraged. What can I do with a widow woman who does nothing
with her life save sell frivolous material and a crazy sooth-saying slave girl
(who was his second convert)? What kind
of church can I start with these two?
Paul looked at what he had and was encouraged instead of discouraged.
Sometimes
God is doing amazing things right in front of us, amazing things among us and
we look at these little miracles and say to ourselves, “what good is that?” “We
really are not any better now than we were before.” Instead of being encouraged that God is
working in ways which we ourselves could never have envisioned, we get
discouraged because things are not “going our way,” which should not at all be a problem when we
are trading “our way” for “God’s way.” We had plan, a vision of how things
would go and they are going a different way. Things are not going how we
envisioned them to go and we get upset, we get discouraged. We downgrade God’s
miracles. We don’t see the miracles and the ground work God is laying, which
will help us to do amazing things in the future.
Think
about the work God must have done before Paul even arrived in Macedonia, in the
heart and life of this woman in order for her to already be a God-fearer and be
ready to hear the good news of the Gospel. Not to mention that through her God
provided someone who had the ways and means to support and take care of Paul,
while he worked to start the church there in Philippi. Lydia might literally
not have been who Paul envisioned when he headed to Macedonia, but she was
exactly what he needed as he was beginning his ministry there. She was open;
she was ready to hear the message Paul had to bring. She had the money and a
large enough house to give him a place to stay and room which he could use as
his base of operations.
I
cannot think of the times in my life when things did not seem to be going the
way I wanted them to go. I cannot list all of the times when I saw how God’s
plans were laying out before me and I scratched my head trying to figure out
what in the world was going on. And I have to admit, at times I got
discouraged, at times I was positive the whole thing was unraveling before me. It
felt to me almost as if God had taken me somewhere and was leaving me there.
Giving me a little wave, saying, well I think you can handle things from here. I
am sure you have got it all handled and leaving me there to figure things out
on my own.
There
have been times when I knew God was leading me and suddenly I saw how things
were working out and was positive God had tricked me. This was not what I had bargained
for; this was not the way things should be working. I have to confess to you
all sometimes when I have felt this way; I was not as gracious as Paul. I whined
and complained and told God just how alone and abandoned I felt. Told God how I
thought that THIS was not how “we” had agreed things would go. And you know
when I have reacted this way to God working out God’s will in my life and the
lives of those around me, when I have been discouraged by God’s plan and how it
did not line up with my plan, things did not turn out so well. Usually, I ended
up not only being discouraged but also hurt and frustrated, because in the end
I was working against God’s plan and not with it.
But
let me also tell you that at other times I can say I have been a little bit
more like Paul. I have, for some reason, been able to see the hand of God at
work even when it did not seem that God was working in the ways I would have
wished for God to work. And instead of being discouraged I thanked God for
working in ways which I could not have even imagined and have accepted the work
of God as the best and seen the glory and the grace and wonder of God’s plan. And
you know, at these times, when I have accepted God’s work and accepted God’s
plan absolutely wondrous, miraculous things have happened.
Paul
accepted the change of plans which took him to Macedonia, Paul accepted his
first unexpected converts and saw the work and the hand of God all along the way.
And the church there in Philippi became one of his most faithful churches which
supported him all through out his life and throughout his journeys. The church
he founded there in Philippi is one to which he speaks most kindly and most
encouraging because it becomes one of the stronger churches in the early church.
The work there did not begin the way Paul would have wanted it to, nothing in
that journey went the way he had planned but because he accepted the work and
the hand of God, even when it did not make sense to him, the work which he did
there in Philippi exceeded any expectations Paul could ever have had for it.
When
we trust God, go where God calls for us to go, do what God calls for us to do
and trust God’s work all along the way, amazing things happen. The early church
is story after story of people trusting God in unexpected circumstances. And
time and time again the church grows and blossoms and God is able to so amazing
things through people. I know that the work God did in the early church is not
limited to first century Christianity. God wants to work through us here in
Cambridge as well. We might not always get the results we had hoped for. We may
not always see God working in the ways we planned for God to work but WHEN we
see God working we need to trust God’s work. We need to trust God’s plan and
accept the work and the plan God is laying out for us. Take what God gives to
us and KNOW that God’s plan is the best plan, that God’s work is the best work
and KNOW that when WE go where God calls for us to go and do what God calls for
us to do, God will do amazing things in us and through us to further God’s
kingdom.